Monday, November 1, 2010

why did i even get out of bed today?

i ask myself this a lot lately... i realize i should be staying positive and i shouldnt be feeling down i mean i do have family who are helping me through this but seriously ... seriously my life seems so lonely and empty right now. i miss my husband, he is my best friend. i miss having lunch with him i miss waking up with him ... i miss just being held by him.
Olivia has been super active and it makes me wonder... will she be like this when she is out here in this world or will she just lay there? its hard to even be close to her right now. when all i want to do is cry i feel like talking to her and whatnot is just not good. i dont know.
i should have just staying in bed all day..

1 comment:

  1. No. You can't do that. You need to talk to her. She is feeling what you are feeling anyways. Its good for babies to get every side of you. It will help her fight when she is born. Just remember we are all praying that Chris will come home soon. Maybe all this bull shit is happening now because when Olive is here she will be twice as strong as we all think. Maybe God is saving every thing for her. Just try and be positive. I know you can do it!