Saturday, September 18, 2010

if there is a god ... then why?

we are not getting any breaks from all this bad shit going on in our lives. we tried to get chris home and it just inst happening.
i am tired and stressed out beyond return. i dont want to deal with this anymore!
why is this happening to us....  what did we do that was so horrible in our life to have to go through all of this? this isnt even the worst.
if you are listening, reading god.... why? why cant you just give us a fucking break ?


  1. Hi, I stumbled on your blog because someone commented on another blog I was reading, with a link to their Owls for Olivia on Etsy.

    My friend Heather's son Asher has HLHS. He is now almost 4 years old, and just started full-day junior kindergarten! I thought you might find Heather's blog about her son informative and hopefully you will find it encouraging.

    She and I are both in Ontario, Canada by the way.

  2. Stanford is amazing and we were in Cardiology clinic the same day as you were in September...crazy!! We'll totally meet up for Lunch and we'd love to meet Little Miss Olivia when she arrives in January! While you're baby is undergoing the first, and totally freaked me out, surgery... Owen will be having his last (hopefully). It's terrifying..every bit of it. All I can say is that it's an experience that will make you grow up well beyond your years. You will feel more love and appreciate life more than you can imagine. Being a heart momma will change you forever. Olivia will fight SO hard and you will back her up every step of the way. I wouldn't change a moment of our heart journey with Owen. I appreciate every single day, every moment, because I don't know when will be our last. Keep your chin up. I can't say that I've ever been without my husband so my heart aches for you and I hope that he'll be back with you soon!!!

  3. I went to church a while back and the sermon really pertained to this. God does not give us what we want, he gives us the ability to grow from what we have gone through. If you ask God for more money, he will give you the opportunity to work more, and harder. There were more examples like that, but you see what I mean. I know we all ask God for the "why" and "please" in life, just something to think about. Maybe that will help you. I am sorry we are not closer to you, because you know I would see you if I could! Just remember that you are a strong woman, and you can do this. You HAVE to. That is also part of being a military wife. We have to sacrifice and push through so many things.