Thursday, September 2, 2010
Ive been reading that this is called mourning the loss of a "perfect baby" ... but truthfully i feel like i am mourning much more than that ... i joked about it before having a downs child and honestly i would take that over this any day... why does this have to be so hard? i am so angry today this isn't fare. i feel jealous of these moms who get to take their little ones home. it makes me angry when i hear about these little things they get to do or "have to do" and just wish that was my biggest complaint. heaven forbid your baby only let you sleep 4 hours last night...or the nursery needed to be a lighter blue but your husband got the wrong color blue. i have to think of hospitals stays ... what will i need to accommodate the medical needs of my baby...where will i stay during the countless nights she will be hooked up to machines to keep her alive. i really wish more mothers would realize how special it is to be able to have a healthy happy baby..
i am trying to stay positive but if you've never been in my shoes then i don't want to hear it right now. you don't know what i am feeling .... this isn't easy and i don't feel strong i feel helpless and hurt.
Posted by Katie D at 7:06 PM